Reflectionist Baz's Blog

So the truth hurts/

Poetic enough to sell it and protected enough to repel it/

There’s no way out/

Corrected and subjective this is not bent/

And I’ll write and write until the feeling is meant/

Take what you will and cast away what you can’t/

A returning favor a factor of your behavior/

Will we ever return to the same wavelength?/

Crisp metallic beats just another being’s heart beating/

The lies hurt more/

And actions say one thing when the words are stuttering and torn/

I can’t keep this up anymore//

Written by Baz

16 June 2009

Left alone wasted and broke/

This life has become a forest of trees/

And you are just a falling leaf/

A deterrent path that leads to nowhere/

I’ve become so cold, numb and my face of stone/

Weltering and weathering away in the winter’s age/

Looking back at all the times I tried to re-engage/

A friendship derailed from the railroad tracks/

The embers sparked into our lungs too fast/

Turned our faces red and we caught that disease/

Spread and spread the hatred till we were incapacitated to our knees/

Changed the locks and locked up what was left of our azure hearts/

While the warm happiness faded in the steel breeze/

There is no reconciliation- we are beating a dead relationship/

I remember reaching and reaching while our ship sank/

Swimming in the ocean of former lovers hands/

While “Best friends means I pull the trigger…” echoed throughout the land/

We were such a tight wound triangle, the three of us separated in sand/

Removing yourself from the situation you removed me in the process/

Let go of me and take your promises so empty as a knife in your chest/

The ice has won over the sea and forever frozen our memories will be/

It’s fifty-fifty and you only had a nickel for every one of my dimes/

Suffocated and coagulated you just don’t do that to a friend/

And get away with still being close to their ex//

Written by Baz

15 June 2009

Incapable of feeling any sympathy/
You are only an action of throwing away talent/
Don’t have time to learn what’s wrong with me with you/
When you’re so co-dependent to the attempts/
Your bent passive aggressive way of venting is only prevent/
Seems like nothing can make me cry/
And it’s such a shame to want to die/
Because you know how hard I’ve tried/
I’m coming over but it won’t matter/
It never was enough to ease the pain/
A lonely depression that erases everyone in it’s path/
Show me your subtle emphasis on everything I have missed//

Written by Baz
07 June 2009

What did they do to you/

To make you so damn empty/

It’s safe to say I filled you/

To the brim when you were blue/

And so empty, still empty/

Why did they harm you/

When you deserved only happiness/

A shame to say I love you/

To the center of the real you/

Because you don’t love yourself when you are empty/

When will you return from their pain/

Given to make you empty/

It’s a waste to say you don’t want to/

When you know I can make the pain fade away/

How will you live with the guilt/

Of taking away the beauty in my empty life/

A taste of heaven is one decision away/

Take my hand to lift you up/

We lost ourselves- Get it back/

But we’ll find each other someday/

Somehow I wish/

You wouldn’t give up//

Written by Baz

16 Apr 2006

I am the creeper in the darkness/

Witness the shadow’s edge/

I am the trigger within your inner-self/

Activation and designation/

At the pull of your veins like thread/

I will be here always/

Lurking in your bath of self-hatred/

I will paint your mind red/

I will taint your eyes/

So that time will bend…/

To let me in/

Creating and elating/

The greatest feeling of defiance/

Gutting and rotting/

The chains of your superior’s reliance/

Suppliance and inspirational alliance/

Will make it all end/

I will change and develop your mind’s balance/

To let me in/

Being the whisper behind every feeling/

Reverberative twitch happens before the edge/

I am the helper and the healer/

Of every reaction being felt less/

Seizing and disengaging/

Colliding a black-and-white image of debasement/

I am here always/

Because you created me with acceptance/

I am to paint your life astir/

I am to balance the hate/

I am love that will make/

Your life hurt…/

To let me in/

The third/

One collapsed in the middle/

I am the void/

The collection/

And neither at all/

I am designed for the indecisive/

Those who watch their life being lived/

Only to witness their downfall/

Absolute and ubiquitous/

Typewrite your fateful transience/

I can transpose for you/

Depending on what your white static/

Creates within me/

Necessitate your limitless illusion/

To collect your boundaries set by me/

To let me in/

The rest/

One’s free from division/

Go through life believing/

It’s just not worth living/

Perception is perceived in threes/

There must be some way/

to create another viewpoint/

That’s believed so collectively/

To let me in//

Written by Baz

29 May 2009

Alone I doubt/
To sort out my feelings/
The thought process is brought out/
Will I survive this mental weather?/
To wage a war/
Against the thought/
to drop down four/
And proceed to rot/
The presence of others/
Derangement of colors/
With hue arbidity/
My reflected-self/
Still remains cloudy/
Whether it’s me/
Or the ever-growing insanity/
Rain shrouds a piece of happiness/
We can never put together/
We can never possess/
In our lives full of stress/
Not one to digress I confess less//

Written by Baz 26 Mar 2006