The darkened room around me/
The walls are burrowing in/
A faint, brief reflection/
Of myself going insane/
As the world attacks me/
These rules begin to bend/
Roomfuls of regret/
I’m broke down on the floor/
I can’t explain this hurt inside/
But I don’t want it anymore/
You call to me/
Screaming out my name/
I can’t feel anything but pain/
And I’m sure you feel the same/
Tears and cigarette ashes/
Insecurities and obscurities/
Collapsed and never-ending/
All mixed in alcohol/
Distilled inside my life’s ending/
Every ally crashed upon me/
Thrown against the wall/
There’s so many thing I can’t conceive/
And I’m certain there will be more/
Unless I lock the door/
Unless I/
I loved you more than you’ll ever know/
Never associated/
I bleed for you more than I could ever show/
Never regretted/
I’ll think of you after you go/
Never obfuscated/
I realize how dislodged I am/
And I hope I won’t disappoint/
Never disheartened/
You eventually will notice/
You eventually will forget/
Whatever happens/
Inside I honestly feel/
that this path has already been set/
Roomfuls of mirrors/
I’m seeing past these walls/
Discovering a paradox/
One that was recalled/
You run to me/
Screaming out my name/
I can’t feel anything because/
Nothing runs through my veins/
This paradox in me/
The same I’ve always seen/
Is the one that has be-stilled me/
I’m so sorry that you still/
Don’t believe//

Written by Baz
13 Sep 2003